Following a simple a plan

Jumping from a task to another. My brain was bubbling.

See… that’s a test for how self-aware I really am. I don’t really recall what I did. It’s just a mess of different readings I did. Some Listening. "Selling the invisible". Then Derek Sivers, but mostly me self-writing about my approach and how I intend to reinforce others’ worldviews.

You should know that it’s all meaningless. If you keep being self-conscious about what they think it will never heal.

So what I did was mostly trying to write down my thoughts. The chain of reflective interrogations led me to different paths.

Then I felt overwhelmed. I remembered simplicity and ONEthing-ness. Which I did.

I figured that people draw positivity from one major thing to another. For example reading books means they will understand the world better, that gives them encouragement and persuade to act, they feel excited and supported to reach results. And if they believe in themselves, they reach what they envisioned.

It’s just a matter of belief.

Let’s keep this simple. And work from paper and pencil. Draw a plan, follow it until something appears wrong. Make changes, tweaks here and there and keep at it.

If you want to receive wisdom of my readings, here is the link.


just write about the problem and process the load out of your brain

I didn’t progress much on drawing those fumes on my bullshit animation.

I have no idea how to draw them. I have tried something, but didn’t look nice. So I just stopped. Through web browsing I understood that I have limiting beliefs with regards to my drawing abilities. So there is room for improvement. But to be honnest, I don’t know where to start.

Instead of looking at this as a weakness, let’s adopt the opportunity perspective. Anything I learn can be part of the hallmark brand I can teach.

I can learn by teaching when it comes to drawing. Isn’t that ironic!

I also about dividing that monstruous task of drawing what I want to draw into small minuature tasks. Like if I want to draw fumes out of that shit. What I can start with?

I can just draw some animation of early mid and end-result. Even that I struggle with. Because I maybe can draw the early frame, but not sure of how the latest frame of a fume should look like. Or even can look like.

I can google clipart image and see what is end result.

See.. There is some potential in what I did. I just found an "end-result" clipart of a fume that I liked. And I worked from there. Reverse drawingt he animation because I believe I should start from the most prominent drawing in the animation. In this case it’s the fume before it dissipates in the air.

Once again, self-writing crystalizes my thinking and makes me objectively discuss an obstructing problem in that my mind couldn’t process.

It’s like a load off my brain that I reprocess in a more methodical manner.

Ok to sleep. I’m grateful I have these medicines next to me in case my tooth wakes me up with pain.

A review of my video project approach so far. and organizing my self-writing

At least this morning I started by recording that audio. The best is to self-write, and that generally arises after I read an insightful book. Then when my self-writing is natural enough. I just read, maybe twice or thrice, in order to make my voice recording more natural.

And now I’m thinking about batching the audio records and batching the animation/visual work on the different recorded audios.

Most of the energy I guess is just on listening my voice and then drawing and making the ideas into visuals.

I think it’s easier to start if the visuals come BEFORE my text.

That’s something to think about. I can read and just look how visual this can be. I draw it and then i can work on the text around it. Which might be just a reformulation of the concept I read.

One thing for certain. Is that reading books I want to read and taking notes of what I find as an "aha" moment is something that I don’t think I will loose. The thrill will probably be gone. But I truly enjoy reading and learning LIFE concepts and skills.

I can certainly give advice on how to do things. Like how to develop a habit for example. I think I have successfully done several times.

I separated myself for the dog I took care of today. Because it wasn;t my decision to bring it home. I just had to take of him because I felt the more capable to do it in my house.

I feel that there are several moments, that are short but intense, where I’m deep. During my day. Like this morning when I answered: "What do I want?" There was some strong opinions expressed there. About leaving that I did not choose to be surrounded by.

I also went I read myself almost from one year ago. I cared too much about others. What they thought of me. I’m glad to know today that I’m not that anymore. See that’s why self-writing helps. It just need to be organized and rightly categorized so I can go back to it, easily anytime I want.

Learning to trust the process

I want my day to include this:

*Early production of summarized ideas into a visual blog. So it’s easier for me to remember.
*Reading of ideas and wisdom of others.
*Watching comedians and their storytelling and writing, in order to learn from them.

I think that’s it for these days. I don’t need more. I should trust the process.

I kind of don’t know where did the time go. My reading time. It disappears so fast.

Waking up. Self-writing. Producing.
Eating and Watching
Surfing and Surfing
Reading and watching a bit

That was today.

A day full of reading and listening that shifted my vision of things

Oh boy what a day. i knew something smelled wrong as soon as I started re-writing that audio-script doc.

It felt out of place when I read it. Out of place from the new vision and concept of producing a video on art. I wanted it to be personal, conversational, zero on the bullshit detector. But as I started replacing the wording and putting fancier phrases, I didn;t feel motivated anymore to read the "script" even if I had a good mic, and the tools to edit the audio. I knew that it should be on one take.

I knew that technology should be the least of my focus. What mattered is that appeared real to the youtube viewer. A one take audio on something meaningful to me. Something I would want to word and talk about anyway, for me to listen, like the video made by ira glass.

So I read and listened. Robert Greene, Sean D’Souza, FightMediocrity guy, Gary Keller, Casey Neistat, Paul Arden. About knowing oneself, story telling, youtube, target audience..

I did a lot of self-writing today, I found out that I should talk about what matters to me. What excites me. Finding that my skills to business and marketing can be applied to artists (like me).

And if I succeed in coming up with simple solution to marketing and business problem to a target of artist audience, they will read and watch my stuff. If I don’t come up with the right strategies, therefore I won’t be able to reach a sustainable minimal audience. So the Mathematical equation is self-clearing. And I should come up with a new equation, naming: a new solution.

In an a spirit to try to explain the concept above better. When I come up with a solution to a probem, a target audience have. If the solution to the problem for that target audience (a single hunt for a specific one rabbit) is accurate both on the problem, solution and target trifecta, then that means that I’m an expert on this and therefore I should be listened to. If something is off, so no audience for the stuff i’m doing is a well deserved outcome.

These 2 above paragraphs are just there for me to reassure myself that the "being an expert" or someone "people should listen to" or "have the experience" doesn’t have to worked on separately than my content I put out there. It’s integrated. It’s an included feature. So I don’t need to think about it separately.

Bottom line is: Forget your legitimacy to talk about the marketing and business subjects you intend to talk about. It is taken care of.

That that. I just have been doing this, there a lot interesting notes and self-writing. I also made my goal bigger to $10,000/month which I, weirdly enough, fell instantly better about working for it

Did the strict minimum of learning today and enjoyed the rest

it was a wholesome day.

Definitely self-writing is a powerful tool for me to keep the mindset, direct my energy and focus toward structured plans.

The most important was to keep the d=structure. I didn’t work on my tracking system, but I know what is missing and what is not.

I know that I need the sequence of my actions during the day. For how long I did something is the work of ManicTime. What I also need is some bursts of self-writing, thought research and questioning of what I do through the writing.

That;s pretty much it. It was a festive day. A lot of reminding my myself how wit and sharp I can be within a social gathering, like my mom’s birthday, My isolation from others hasn’t affected my "socializing" reflexes.

To sleep. Tomorrow, I want to record, as a test, some audio and see how I can synchronize my voice with the video.