Jumping from a task to another. My brain was bubbling.
See… that’s a test for how self-aware I really am. I don’t really recall what I did. It’s just a mess of different readings I did. Some Listening. "Selling the invisible". Then Derek Sivers, but mostly me self-writing about my approach and how I intend to reinforce others’ worldviews.
You should know that it’s all meaningless. If you keep being self-conscious about what they think it will never heal.
So what I did was mostly trying to write down my thoughts. The chain of reflective interrogations led me to different paths.
Then I felt overwhelmed. I remembered simplicity and ONEthing-ness. Which I did.
I figured that people draw positivity from one major thing to another. For example reading books means they will understand the world better, that gives them encouragement and persuade to act, they feel excited and supported to reach results. And if they believe in themselves, they reach what they envisioned.
It’s just a matter of belief.
Let’s keep this simple. And work from paper and pencil. Draw a plan, follow it until something appears wrong. Make changes, tweaks here and there and keep at it.
If you want to receive wisdom of my readings, here is the link.
Just the notion that I just need a keyboard, a screen and internet connection to live a full life is so relieving.
I can be anywhere. Doesn’t matter what powerful technology I have, it is just incremental improvement on my scale of comfort. And I don’t need more comfort. Especially if I want to live a rich life.
That means that the worst that can happen is actually not that bad. Me in a corner with an old laptop and my eagerness to learn.
Placing the words, choosing the sentences and setting the rhythm.
I spent most of the day reading, again. Originally as a form of sloth, but then the quality of wisdom I came across made me get up.
Yes, it’s all about value creation. People have some form of hassle in their lives that they want to get rid of. I’m here to see what I can do. Some of their problems are piece of cake for others. The work lies in matching the two sides.
That’s it really. I feel I bit self-conscious now that I’m writing this. But I just spent the day reading and learning and trying to follow the advice.
Of course advice can be good but not necessarily good for you.
Also I got control of youtube. No more related videos that lure me into the black hole of time. itube now.
This a lot of content I am producing out in one day.
Am I trying new things? Yes. Am I just staying busy? Probably. There is a chance.
I enjoyed editing this video. Surprised when it was a vlog of 22 min. I did take a lot of footage. Trying a different thing: long form.
We’ll see what happens.
As I said in the vlog. I have decided that I don’t want to teach. Per se. I’m more like wanting to express myself. Like Seth Godin, Casey. Ferriss. I don;t really want to have a course. It’s not that I don;t really want. I’d love the easy money from packaging a product and making a course.
But I should keep my focus in doing something I love and enjoy.
But most importantly. What I found eye opening today was that I need to understand the people that I want to add value to in a deep sense. Maybe more than they do themselves. Like when I helped Tato. I knew exactly what he was after. I knew exactly what he desired from his trip to London. And I gave him exactly that. And he enjoyed knowing as friend.
Need to keep up animating. Expressing. Reading, Honing the skills.
I uploaded my videos of the course. I just need to send it for review. Let me finish Tony Wilson biography.
So it’s there. Submitted for review. In 2 days. That’s what I’m most proud.
And I’m even more proud by the "let’s see what happens" attitude I’m adopting. This world and time is meaningless compared to hugeness of space-time universe. So let’s chill. Even if I kill somebody, it’s still meaningless compared to the universe.
I read and listened to Robert Greene, wanted to know more about the bio of Paul Graham but found only geeky silicon valley "next thing" interviews. But still curious about how Paul learned painting in Florence before coming back to New York then SF.
I also listened to Casey Neistat podcast. There is much more value in listening to his wisdom and podcast when it comes to learning the principle. His videos serve as illustrations of his work, so it’s still good to watch.
Uploaded 2 videos my vlog post of yesterday doing the Udemy thing and the Fireworks day video.
Sleeping nourished and happy. Quiet and peaceful. And getting ready tomorrow for reading more and trying out things.
I’m always by 2 conflicting emotions. The one that screams "I need to make money to get away from these people" and the one that says "You can only make money by doing something you enjoy". There is no money making in the long-term if the focus is actually on making money.
So what can I do? The first option is to reduce drastically the contact with people that judge while I save my time and energy to focus on what matters to me, which is: finding something that I enjoy that makes money.
The thing to which you say "I can’t believe I get paid to do that" or "I could do it for free, if I’m not thinking long-term".
Two. I thing I still have an advantage in reading and distilling ideas to their essence, and I believe people need me to that for them. Explaining the books I read to them. Saving them time and energy. Because not everybody has the persistence of reading text and saving time for audiobooks, but they will still benefit from gems in books they heard about.
That’s it. I’m happy I’m trying to animate. I found After Effects as a program that is closer to Illustrator and Photoshop so I can get along with it much more easily.
Tomorrow I will finish that animation of fumes getting out of the shit and see how move to the next animation of the stereo bursting with fumes then pundit sounds.
Regarding my reading. I enjoy early morning reading and audiobook listening. Mastery from Robert Greene. I feel that I can read more, and spend more time listening and getting within the environment that I should to be part of.
Let’s have a goal. I will decide on a format and do another 1 week vlog post about my readings.Either it will be with face talking, From the "inventory stock warehouse". Or making nice animations, with maybe after effects, or after effects and my face at the same time with words and shapes poping next to my head while talking.
Today was an ok day. Not deserving a judgment anyway.
I just thought out what I should do. And that means focusing on what I’m good at already. I’m good at reading and discovering ideas. I’m energetic about thinking up concepts and finding a new way of looking at something. I enjoy listening and learning from the wisdom of others.
Look there are plenty of books out there, and no one can talk about them all. If someone like Fightmediocrity is trying something like that, he needs help. Because there is so much more to show the world.
I will not be the same person if I haven’t read the books I’ve read. And most these authors wouldn’t have written those books if they haven;t read their other books. So that’s my project. My work. My art.
Where I’m good at and can enjoy being better at it. That’s where I can make a difference in the world. Of course I need thankyou notes so I can survive doing it. But that’s not essential.
I’d like to read that book about Debt actually. Knowing that money has been created just people needed to keep record the debt of what each one has makes the whole money thing chance significantly for me.
Will I reread when I write? I doubt it. It needs to remain true and authentic.
When do I need to start? Tomorrow. Saturday 13 Feb. I think that almost the same date I started isnotagame. Just jump on self writing after listening to maybe an audiobook or just write something straight out of your mind.
It doesn’t have to be long and you know that.
Ok so you know what you’re doing tomorrow morning. Apart from that. Yes I’m leaving the animated cartoons as a labor of love which I do when, and only when, I enjoy doing it. I’m professional when it comes to producing text on a daily basis. That’s game I want to play. That’s the battle that I chose.
It’s my 2nd day in which I just recorded audio, without making visuals. I’m still believing that there is a a way to make my visual or the medium in which I put the text and audio more enjoyable for me to make.
I refuse to believe for now that I should do something even if I don’t fully enjoy. I believe in Hell Yeah or no. Making the drawings with my audio is not a complete Hell yeah.
But let’s agree that I got better at recording my voice. After 2 or 3 out loud recorded reading I make better record of my voice. It sounds more natural. There is less edit. And I must say. It’s has become a bit more enjoyable. I mean the audio part.
Regarding the visuals. I don’t know yet about that. I find it painful to use videoscribe. It’s not intuitive. Maybe if there is something in Adobe it would be easier. I don’t know if I should just maybe record my face while talking.
What is certain is that enjoy listening and reading books. That’s for sure. Maybe not reading the books, by strictly finishing one then moving to another. But more like consider the text as solid blog post and the audio as some 1-2 hrs podcast at a time.
I’m taking the wisdom of the others and slowly making it my own.
At least I know what I enjoy more. And where I should sniff more toward to.
At least this morning I started by recording that audio. The best is to self-write, and that generally arises after I read an insightful book. Then when my self-writing is natural enough. I just read, maybe twice or thrice, in order to make my voice recording more natural.
And now I’m thinking about batching the audio records and batching the animation/visual work on the different recorded audios.
Most of the energy I guess is just on listening my voice and then drawing and making the ideas into visuals.
I think it’s easier to start if the visuals come BEFORE my text.
That’s something to think about. I can read and just look how visual this can be. I draw it and then i can work on the text around it. Which might be just a reformulation of the concept I read.
One thing for certain. Is that reading books I want to read and taking notes of what I find as an "aha" moment is something that I don’t think I will loose. The thrill will probably be gone. But I truly enjoy reading and learning LIFE concepts and skills.
I can certainly give advice on how to do things. Like how to develop a habit for example. I think I have successfully done several times.
I separated myself for the dog I took care of today. Because it wasn;t my decision to bring it home. I just had to take of him because I felt the more capable to do it in my house.
I feel that there are several moments, that are short but intense, where I’m deep. During my day. Like this morning when I answered: "What do I want?" There was some strong opinions expressed there. About leaving that I did not choose to be surrounded by.
I also went I read myself almost from one year ago. I cared too much about others. What they thought of me. I’m glad to know today that I’m not that anymore. See that’s why self-writing helps. It just need to be organized and rightly categorized so I can go back to it, easily anytime I want.
The alarm set at 6 was great. My mind was ready to end the day.
I get distracted when I get into video games.. More than my brothers. I get hooked faster. And I should learn to limit the damage.
I feel I’m on a rail track these days. I’m focused on doing one thing. As said in the podcast, it’s not easy to become "oh I;m going to chill now" especially if you are a type A personality that wants to accomplish great things.
I need to fill my time with listening and reading. I was on a good track on it/ Until my brother was here. He is using me for his entertainment, as much I do when it comes my turn to disturb him. I;m sure there a balance somewhere.
I’m drinking absinthe tea. Actually it;s not absinthe. It’s only an infusion of the leafs. It’s doing something to my membrane.
Like I said. I need to fill in my time with a set of activities such as:
-Reading/listening to books.
It’s like I want to do more. And less is more! I need to learn how to chill. Let’s just complete that first week with vlogging every morning. I remember having everyday of the week for something. like something that surprised me, or something I want to teach… But I found my voice and went on blogging. I should do the same with vlogging.
Technically, I’m not vlogging. I’m animating. Drawing illustrating. I should finish the 7 days, or whatever I set as "habit forming" objective. And give a try to vlogging my face out there. With maybe animation, clips and sequences, and sounds inside. You know…Unleashing my whole creativity thing.
Let’s focus on this until Sunday. Vlogging and Reading. That’s it. Vlogging and reading week
I wish I could write this journal at 6 pm as I set my alarm to.
I could have talked about how enjoyable the day can be when you purposely avoid negativity, from the people around you, from the things you might be lured to do.
I did my dues for today. I’m not sure if I should consider my daily vlogs as my drippings. But it’s definitely something I enjoy doing without knowing where it will lead me. It definitely doesn’t scale.
I feel that I should go back to listening to mixergy and podcasts that put me into the reality I chose. Not the reality others choose for me.
I bummed today. And that’s the feeling a comedian like seinfeld, bill burr and chris rock and louis ck feel everyday. And they cope with. They’re humans. Why should I not cope it. What’s make me different.
What was I thinking. Having encouragement of what I do from 60 years old? That was not a smart move.
I remember when Chris Rock was telling about that story he had in a college gig. He said that it was the moment where he "became what he became today", because he could not be de-phased by meaningless anymore. He was stronger than ever.
I should get back on reading. Placing reading gaps during the day. And focusing on what matter. Not on encouragement from people that have no word in what I do, or decide to do.